Don’t be so ashamed of the fact that you questioned Allah and vented your frustration at His decree that you can’t follow Islam anymore . This is a trap of Shaytaan who’s ultimate victory is in getting you to abandon connecting with your creator.
Loosing your house or job or your child becoming sick and dying, or loosing a spouse, being cheated on , or neglected, or someone you love relinquishing their love for you ,or not feeling like you got what you worked so hard for, or feeling like your faith isnt compatible with who you are, etc, are very heartbreaking things that don’t make walking the Sirat easy.
While the frustration should be alarming to you, remember that multiple Prophets experienced the same thing. And some even questioned Allah’s decisions outright. What made them special was that no matter the answer Allah gave them, they hastened back to repentance, surrender, and faith with supreme sincerity and vigor never abandoning Salah. And that they learned from missteps and didn’t get complacent in them.
Sometimes teachers will teach of some mythical figure who made only 1.6 mistakes in his life to make you feel motivated but unfortunately it often has the opposite effect and makes you feel horrible and distant from faith. Know that this is probably the teachers lack of understanding of how people work, not the faith itself.
Remember that there are more grounded examples for relate-able faith in the Prophets and Mothers of believers, stations assigned by Allah himself. Read about em.
It is not the perfection but the perseverance through being shaken to the core that makes a believer special.
“Or do you think that you will enter Paradise while such [trial] has not yet come to you as came to those who passed on before you? They were touched by poverty and hardship and were shaken until [even their] messenger and those who believed with him said,”When is the help of Allah ?” Unquestionably, the help of Allah is near.” – Sahih International
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